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Eight.

A horrible, wonderful, scary thought struck me the other day.

 

By the time little Leia is the same age as Lacey, my eldest …

 

 

my sweet little Lacey will be 16 years old. Driving a car. Becoming an adult. Falling in love (Oh, Lord, help me!). Thinking about college.

 

 

I’m not sure how that is possible – will it really go by as fast as these past eight years have gone by? I remember the day I found out I was first pregnant and had to hold in my joy and excitement in my tiny cubicle at my work, knowing it was too early to tell anyone. I remember going in labour 2.5 weeks early and being so excited and scared all at the same I remember when Lacey was born. I remember the moment the doctors called out and said, “It’s a girl ..!! and when asked what her name was they all agreed Lacey was perfect for her as they said,  “She looks like fine lace …”

 

 

Realizing how fast the next eight years may go, I worry that I have not done enough with her, have I taught her she is beautiful inside and out, that she is God’s princess, that she can always come to her mommy and daddy for help, have I trained her to think of others first, to be a hard worker, to stand up for her beliefs, do I praise her enough for helping me around the home, do I tell she she is loved enough … do I kiss her head and hug her little body enough? Do I paint her nails enough and play with her hair when she asks me to … do I spend enough time scratching her back, finding out what she dreamed last night and reading to her before falling asleep at night …

 

 

 

Why didn’t someone tell me that being a mom meant more than seeing that blue line show up on the pregnancy test? That being a mom was more than carrying a baby in your womb for nine months… That being a mom meant you will stay up at night, staring at your daughter’s pretty little face and praying over her. That being a mom meant struggling to know if you are doing everything you can do to be THE BEST mom that God has called you to be to your precious child. That being a mom literally meant your heart would leave the house every time she did.

 

 

This mom-calling. It’s pretty big stuff.  I’m thankful for God’s grace in all of this …

 

June 8, 2012 - 12:32 am

Kim - I love reading your blog and looking at the photos of your beautiful family, but this particular one hit home. You wrote it so beautiful and the photos are exceptionally beautiful!! My oldest is only 4 1/2 but I am always wondering things like the thoughts you have written. She is heading off to preschool in the fall and I am having such a hard time to let go (to some degree)… I wish we could find a way to never let them grow up!! You just inspired me to take more photos, even if they won’t make sense to others (like sleeping photos, which I often do). Thank you so much for letting us into your world and sharing your family with us!! You truly are a wonderful mother and very inspiring!!

June 7, 2012 - 7:26 pm

Heidi - My eyes are so misty…your sentiments so beautifully expressed echo all the thoughts and feelings that linger in my mind and heart each day. Time is passing by too quickly and everyday I have to remind myself to stop and make the day into a special memory. Thank you for reminding me of that again today…time to go make another memory. xoxo

June 7, 2012 - 1:30 pm

Devon - How beautiful and inspiring Gillian!! <3

June 7, 2012 - 1:29 pm

janet Pereira - This is one of my favourite posts you’ve ever written and it couldn’t have come at a better time. Not only are you a very talented photographer but a very talented writer as well. thanks for making me stop and think. My first born baby is almost 15 and i don’t know where the time has gone. This post made me realize Some days we spend too much time arguing and disagreeing, that we should spend more time laughing and listening. Thanks for making me think, i have tears in my eyes.

June 7, 2012 - 9:40 am

Sherry - Oh Gillian! This was lovely! A couple of weeks ago I was having the same kind of thoughts. Nicholas turned 9 in May!!! I realized that in about 8-9 years he will be off to college and will no longer be my little boy. He will no longer snuggle with me on the couch or want me to read “Captain Underpants” to him. He is already starting to pull away, & not need me as much, which means I am doing my job as his mama. He is Smart, funny, confident, compassionate and just plain wonderful. I can’t wait to see him all grown up, but will very much miss having “my little boy”. Let’s not talk about my girl….she is 7 going on 17 and is not far behind her brother….They have gotten so big so fast.

June 7, 2012 - 9:27 am

Lori - You truly are blessed with many gifts Gillian that is so amazing when you share them with others <3 Your girls know how lucky they are and in God's grace.

June 7, 2012 - 9:07 am

Jen Heemskerk - BEST post ever! My thoughts exactly!

June 7, 2012 - 8:52 am

Natalie Grist - What a beautiful post Gillian. Thanks for sharing:)

June 7, 2012 - 8:23 am

Amanda - This is soo BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

June 7, 2012 - 8:10 am

Brenda (Gillian's Mom) - OH GILLIAN!!! I can barely see .. the tears are flowing from my eyes and straight down my cheeks! …. You write the words that are in my heart every day! Yes, being a mom is a REAL life experience!! Our children will ALWAYS be our children … and our hearts will always ache for them and their lives. Oh my …. <3

June 7, 2012 - 7:54 am

Jamie - what a beautiful post! This brought tears to my eyes.

June 7, 2012 - 12:20 am

rebecca mclaren - Loved this blog post and also the quote by an amazing man ;)

June 7, 2012 - 12:19 am

rebecca mclaren - Loved this blog post :) and also the quote by an amazing man ;)

June 6, 2012 - 10:32 pm

Grandma Gerr - Beautiful sweet darling Lacey! Yes the years have flown! <3