Scrambled {thoughts}.

“Now that I have seen … I am responsible …
faith without deeds is dead.
Now that I have held you
in my own arms
I cannot let go …”

I can’t seem to wrap my head around the fact that there are more toys in my kids’ bathtub than there are in the entire Haitian village I visited last week.

There is more food in my fridge and cupboards than I need. And there is one bed per child in this house while families of 11 people spend countless nights, cuddled up on a cold, damp cement floor of their Haitian homes. 

This weekend has been a whirlwind weekend – from ballet recitals for my five year old (which is a big deal in this house), grand openings of church projects, shooting a wedding all day Saturday, unpacking from La Tienda, and trying to sort through hundreds of e-mails and facebook messages. 

My brain and mind are on overdrive. And my heart is heavy. I’m trying to sift through all I saw and experienced this past week during the trip to the D.R. to documents the lives of the women of La Tienda. I keep crying when I see the photos. I keep praying that God will use these images for His glory.

I can’t seem to think of anything else right now. Their beautiful faces stay frozen in my memory. My heart is being tugged and I am crying at night when I lay in my comfy bed, with my three little girls tucked safely in their beds across the hallway. The lives here in Canada and North America are such a stark contrast to those in the Haitian village.

The one tiny glimmer of hope that keeps me feeling connected to this project is that my work is not done  with La Tienda. I still have to go through 1,000s of the photos and edit them, organize them, figure out which ones are best for the website, for marketing, for handouts at the Canadian La Tienda parties, figure out when the next big La Tienda party and photography showcase will be … so much still to do … but I am so happy about that. I don’t WANT to be done with this project yet. I have been so happy to be involved with la Tienda and the Haitian women … and I want to do more … but I am not sure where God is leading me.

 

Still, my heart cannot stop hurting for the people I have meet over the past week …

 

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Tamara took this photo while I was photographing one of the La Tienda ladies … 

 

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I will leave you with this beautiful music video one of my friend sent me … the song is written about Albertine, a little girl the songwriter met while in Africa:

June 24, 2009 - 8:31 am

Rose This is an unbelievable post! It is breath-taking! The message, the happy faces of the children, the colors… everything is overwhelming! Congratulations on making it!

June 23, 2009 - 10:11 pm

Rose:) Very touching photos, I cry each time I see such pictures of children, women, men, that need so much comfort of everyday essentials, not material things, just everyday survival!
Gillian, your journey with this has just begun, I truly believe God is working through you and that He truly will lead you where He wants you to go…..hang in there your work is not finished…it just begun:) I’m rootin behind ya!

June 16, 2009 - 11:08 am

Mom Gillian, I can totally feel your heart… and your heaviness. Please know that the Lord will and can use you, RIGHT from where you are! You can be of great service to La Tienda with your photos and journalism about their lives and their cause. The La Tienda parties will bring income for the ladies and that is very important too. Don’t be … Read Morediscouraged….
I have a great story from the Daisy Dejeuner and how it connects to La Tienda! God is at work!!!
We ARE blessed here in Canada and we can certainly do our part.
Love you xoxo

June 16, 2009 - 10:08 am

lyndsay hyatt-almeida gillian, we are so blessed, aren’t we? wow. you truly captured the suffering these poor people feel on a daily basis. thank you for sharing these images. they remind me (and convict me) of just how much i have to be thankful for.

June 15, 2009 - 11:07 pm

Ange Awww beautiful photos, I’m so excited to see you put brooke’s song on your pages, she is an amazing New Zealander, an inspiration in our country.

June 25, 2009 - 10:16 pm

The work is {not} done … » Gigi Blog […] was going through this wide range of emtions, my heart and mind was quickly transported back to the Haitian village I recently visited. I remember, quite clearly, the sick children, the rotting poverty, the unfair political treatment, […]